Life Update

Life recently has been going good. Formal was this past weekend and I surprisingly had a really good time. I know we just got back from ski week but I'm already really excited for spring break. School recently has been pretty difficult so I can't wait for some time off from it all.

Awareness

I thoroughly enjoyed Wallis's speech about being aware of everything around you. As people we tend to jump to conclusions and judge other people so easily and our first thought is never that maybe they are going through something difficult in their lives. Our first thought is always about how they are bothering us and inhibiting us from finishing whatever it is that we need to do. We never really consider that they could be dealing with something ten times worse than us.

Honesty

I think that honesty is one of the most important important parts of a relationship. Without honesty I don't think that the relationship has anything to go off of because honesty is the foundation of every relationship. I understand that there are certain things that people don't always want to share but in a relationship you need trust so eventually you should be honest with them and share everything that's on your mind.

Soulmates

I'm honestly not a big believer in the idea of soulmates because there are so many variable to consider. How do you know when you've met your soulmate? Because what if you met your soulmate and didn't know it and left them. Or even the other way around where you think you met your soulmate but you actually didn't. I personally think it's more of a fairy tale idea for people to believe in.

New Year's Resolution

I've never been a big believer in the idea of having a New Year's Resolution.  But this year I think that I want to have the goal of spending more time with my family. Recently all of us have been really distant from each other with my dad's work and my brother at college. My brother is in town until the 18th and I want to use this time to really make us start acting like a family again.

Stress

I think that this quarter has gone much better than any in the past. For the first time in a while I don't really feel stressed about school work. I think I have finally figured out how to balance out my school work with the rest of my life. I've noticed how much happier I am when I don't have to worry about the stress of trying to get everything done and still go out because I have finally mastered it. It has made my life much easier.

Poem

Disappointment
To who?
To you, to my family, to my religion
I've lost track.

Do you not remember that little girl
that would always look up to you?
Does she mean nothing to you anymore?

I've worked so long
and so hard
fighting for your approval
and this time
I'm the one who's disappointed.

But now I quit
Wasting my life on you
isn't worth wasting my happiness

But I can't help but question why I was never good enough...